YSaturday, January 28, 2006
im empty hollow and lost again.
its nothing new-i noe.
im sick of feeling tis way over and over again
im drenched and fatigue is catching up on me
WHAT IS WRONG WITH ME?
oh Lord..help me please..i need you
after all tat i've been thinking and the soul searching tat i've made,
perhaps i should consider being numb..
to the point that i dun care abt wat people think of me.
i have been constantly bummed out by wat people think
that not impressing them or failing just keep hurting.
man! i dun wana hurt anymore.
im just fragile..get it?!
admittedly sensitive to my surrounding..
i care for you..no matter hw short a period of time i knew u
dun judge me with just a conversation
dun pick on me.underestimate me.
WITHOUT giving me the chance.dun.
u dissapoint me.
i met this person who seemingly appeared like a dream come true..
all nice..humble..and all..
as we spoke..i got intrigued..
only to find out that ur just like everyone else.
tsk.
once again-bollocks!
i duno how my heart and mind works..
it just does tis "rush" thing when i come across someone like u..
and this is madness. how am i to stop it?
i dunoo..
BUT i noe that i can avoid it..
so i avoid having all tis feelins.
i avoid getting close to ppl like you.
i refrain myself from my weakness.
someone told me that i'm easy to please..
perhaps i am..
only by those with artisitic influences..
im an artsy person..that's just me.
i need someone as artsy to understand me..
sme1 who have the same passion for my love to understand me..
my life is surrounded with music..cuz it's wat i grew up with..
i may not be able to play any instruments..
but i do know how to appreciate good music..
i love to write and i can just continue writing things that u cant figure out.
this is me.
i give up giving a shit about you.
in the end..im still gona be on my own..
so it really doesnt matter.
does it?
sometimes not caring is just the best way to get u by..
correct me if im wrong.
_callous_ was here with you at
